Quitting job

Today I quit my job. I told my boss I’m not going to work for him if I can’t take breaks and he continues to yell at me.I’m learning to defend myself.I only just started. Only been a week.It was a landscaping job. But i worked long hours with nonstop physical labor. It made me feel at times like a mule or a slave. It was the hardest physical labor i’ve done. a workout.I pursued it because I had experience in just using lawnmowers and weed wackers. Rather than running away from myself which the old me would have done. I’m curious. I’ve never had the ability to be honest with my boss and kind of see if the job works for me.if that makes sense. or kind of interview the job and the boss. I was experiencing stress, shock, fear, anxiety. Lonelines depression. Anger. I had the fear of getting hit hurt come up. I was a little afraid of my boss. He’s likea  whipcracker. He reminded me of donald trump kind of. I’ve read up on verbal abuse. and learned the basics of it.  I quit because i decided to set boundaries for myself. By being honest with myself I realized the job did not make me happy but unhappy and depressed. I didn’t feel connected to the boss and my co-worker. I had a sense of paranoia like there judging me or something. Something didn’t feel right. My boss was toxic and yelled and bitched all day. He ruined my week. I was not able to live my life and enjoy the present.I had to seperate myself from the situation

I realize that working a 9-5 is not living the life ur supposed to live.But almost what/how other people want you to live. Until I accumlate enoigh income to do what i really want to do and “to live the live I’m supposed/was meant to” then 9-5 is the only way there.

I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to overwork myself and not take breaks, breathe , and relax the tensions inn my mind and body

I forgive myself for allowing and accepting my emotions to manipulate me

I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to give up at work because it was too hard and physically and mentally strenous and exahausting

I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to stop work and therefore stop the flow of income or a job to support myself

I forgive myself for allowing and acceptng myself to judge myself as slow at work

I forgive myelf for allowing and acceptng myself to bully myself

I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to be bothered by my aunt asking if i was working or not

I forgive myself for allowing and accpeting myself to become afraid paranoid of my boss yelling at me or correcting me

I forgive myself for allowng and accepting myself to be sensitive to workers and bosses at work

I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to feel guilty when my boss said u lied that u did landscaping for 2 years when it was a typo on the resume

I forgive myelf for allowing and accepting myelf to want to scream at my boss

I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to feel like a slave working for my boss

I forgive myself for allowing and accepting myself to define myself as peaceful at work

I forgive

 

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