Religious conditioning and violence/fighting

I was “born into” a Jehovah’s Witness family. Luckily my parents left around the 1st grade or so.  I do remember not celebrating birthdays in class.Which didn’t make things better as far as isolation. Boredom. And suppressing fun. Because what fun is it not celebrating a birthday!? It was a anti war philosophy. An Anti-World society. I was taught the concept of “God” I was taught all other cultures religions they were evil or rather “there god/gods were” I have to take a look back and see and try to remember what I was taught and check to see if I absorbed any of the mind control. Correction: they are not pacifists but refuse to go to war. They are also  politically neutral. Also this religion takes the Bible and Jehovah in it literally. Where there God is an angry murdering jealous wrathful entity. There belief was that we were the chosen ones which will go to paradise and all others will perish by the hands of god. Pretty insane, delusional and dark. I believe the creator of this organization was associated with very powerful  connected ruling/”royal” families so it was created to control mass amounts of people to believe in this  rather “elite” philosophy of being the chosen ones.

 

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to be afraid of the world due to religious conditioning until the age of 5-6

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to suppress my triggers of violence such as anger, annoyance, etc

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to be afraid and superstitious of people

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to be programmed by my parents

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to be afraid of violence. Where peace is the answer at all costs even death in which case makes you a martyr. And so your blind to the abuse of the world.

I forgive myself for not accepting and allowing myself to realize that the religious conditioning could have an affect on me.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to be afraid to physically hit or attack someone and or get into a fight, conflict, or confrontation due to pacifist religious mind conditioning or programs. I realize I held in violence and was exposed to violence through holly-wood movies ( subliminal mind control suggestion)

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to be afraid/hesitant to hit or attack someone because im afraid  of the consequences, judgement, and punishment I perceive i will receive if i do hit someone the “law”. I realize and recognize this is a strength.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself into a polarity of good and bad. And for creating an image of “god” in my mind. But really in “my” mind-consciousness system.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to be brainwashed by politics and for participating in the polarity

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself if i ever did repress my shadow during the childhood years of being in the brainwashing organization

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to suppress my inner child because of the religion. And to fear people through the belief systems of others being almost bad or evil

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to suppress myself on my birthday and not celebrate and party hard.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to suppress having fun on my birthday and holidays.

I forgive myself for accepting and allowing myself to project my shadow onto people through any of the religions conditioning that was programmed into me

I commit myself to investigate this religious conditioning as well as fear of fighting, combat, and conflict.